Wait... What are YOU talking about?

Midnight I'm going vegan. I went to a doctor today and I have all of the vitamins.

Dude... Your lame :)

:( why?

Vegans... Guess I'll have to eat twice as much meat haha

You don't even know! So much work!!

I'm sure. Enjoy eating plants, which are living creatures btw you monster haha

I'm cool with that. My carbon dioxide keeps them alive. I'm so excited rey :)

Your a dork. Each plant you eat means less oxygen produced. Thanks.

Some plants can't survive without you cutting parts off. And we don't eat a lot of plants therefore your oxygen supply is met.

No, you may not eat alot of plants in one sitting, but your picking them off. That and the amount of cattle eating them doesn't help.

I mean we don't normally eat a lot of plants. Like roses or shrubs, oak trees, etc. And yeah.  Which is why there are people like you keeping numbers down :) you should just eat roam free meat.

Just because I can, doesn't mean I will. Vegans kill plants, which feed cattle, which feed me. So your actually killing non vegans. Grats murderer.

Cattle eat grass. I promise you I'll leave enough grass for them. But you really should eat roam free meat. Eliminate sluaghter houses! And if there were no cattle you could eat veggies :()

Cattle roaming free without being in check would be too tough to fetch for a meal. Not to mention the impact it'd have in society, plus the health issues. 

What health issues? That solves most if not all of the problems slaughter hosues have. It would have little impact on society if the houses switched over.

The amount of dung left behind. Not to mention who would pick up after it. Erosion to the soil. Dieseases being spread rather than contained.

Or the ranchers would collect it and sell it to the farmers to use as fertilizer :)

Why bother if cattle are roaming free? Why not they get rid of the middle man and make their profit? So ranchers would have a less income, yay for that meanie.

I'm confused. If the rancher had roaming cows and collected their poo, they'd collect from the meat and the poo they sell to the farmers who then make money from what they grow. 

Whats the point of roaming cattle?

It's the same thing as a slaughter house basically except before they kill them they aren't kept in awful living conditions, and for the most part aren't killed and processed with diseases.

Adds to the flavor in my book.

Also adds to the amount of pain the animals are forced to endure. Plus all the lame animals killed.

Lame animals? I can understand crap living conditions, but you can thank the government for that. Now the diseases, its always going to be there. Sure it'll be reduced with better living conditions, but still exists.

I understand diseases in these facilities are inevitable, but I want to lower them. That's my point. Nothing is perfect. Animals are meant to be eaten so they don't overpopulate, but I don't believe  they are meant to be tortured beforehand. Lame animals have broken limbs.

Yes, animals should've overpopulate. Espiecally humans, some just deserve to be eaten. And there will always be sadistic freaks who gain pleasure from torturing animals. 

[White = Schy Greenish= Rey]

Apologizes Are Useless.

I'm sorry.

ee-death

How the f*ck can you question me?
My well-to-do self being is nothing what it seems,
I'm f*cking broken by the one thing I truly fear,
Something so complex, nothing could compare to it near,
My heart, whatever the f*ck was left,
Was broken and torn right from my very breast,
I watched as you squeezed with all your might,
I continued dying slowly since that fateful night.

I've become hostile to all those who I called my fam,
What you used to feel for me is nothing but a sham,
I call and message to see how your doing,
Your short responses show me your true feelings,
My pitiful cries for attention and help are blown off,
To the sound of another number on your cell,
You quickly answer to see who it is,
I hoped you did that for me is what I wish.

How can it be I could have possible cared for you so,
Since its over you treat me like a f*cking bloke,
You f*cked me over continuously day by day,
But guess what, I loved you, which made me stay,
Loved, being the key phrase in this rant rage,
To you, I guess I'm nothing more than a stage,
Honestly the most I'll ever be is your toy,
You know my words are true, don't act coy.

I'm nothing more than a fall back, just in case right?
Someone thats always gonna be there day and night,
A simple call and I'll be there, Johnny on the Spot,
You know this truth, your acts make me rot,
I'll be the one you can kick to the curve like a doll,
But guess what, I'll always be there to watch you fall.
I'll be the one to pick you up and stand by your side,
Unlike the rest who just want to f*ck you like a ride.

Your doubting me, but look into my eyes as I look into yours,
Understand the truth of life and its course,
My eyes swell to see you in the arms of another,
We spoke of family, happy to be a father,
I lost that warmth in my heart when you walked,
Wonder how different it'd be if we talked,
I sigh at you with you talks of a daughter,
Yet you take it as a joke, killing me like man-slaughter.

*low rumbling* Lillith? I luvs you. *glomp*

Every get that feeling your being watched? Got a cat? Friend of the Family has the cat? Meet Lillith. Danny bought this, runt, for Lynda on Valentine's Day 08. Back then, she was a true runt, possibly the middle child when she was born. Really frail looking; now time has come and gone. Guess what? Danny found out something.

Runts grow up and get bigger with proper care (and a sadistic roommate who gives her treats when they aren't watching :D). Bigger, badder, darker, and with the fury of retractable claws, quick speed, ability to have better vision in the dark, predatory instincts; Lillith made it known, she was still the baby of the apartment, whenever she sole chose it. Every other time, be on your guard and watch your heel for a cold chill running by followed by a tingling pain. 

Evolution

3:23 pm. I know we are suppose to love each other for and by the way we are, but is it so wrong to try to change someone? Even if you mean for the better? I can't help but think maybe, they were right... I should've waited. Are we really compatible? Can we make this work? Nothing is every 50/50, someone always try more than the other person.

Maybe your just overthinking this? You just need to relax. Alot has happened these past few days and you just need to breathe and handle everything on a day-by-day basis. You can't carry the burden of the world on your shoulders every single day.

How can I handle it all by solely living in the present? What about the future? I enjoy the little moments that are happening at this exact moment, how could I not? But... what about the future I want, need, deserve to give others? How can I explain to them or my family that I was too busy living in the realization of the moment to think of anything else? To worry about what might happen 5 years from now?

Though I know I can't think of all the answers to the countless questions I have racing through my mind. I can't help but wonder about it all. Maybe, I shouldn't have risked it; and if I didn't, what if I missed something beautiful later on? How can I live without knowing whats in store for me?

Do I regret this decision... I'm not entirely sure. Was this a short-termed fix? I don't know. How long can this possibly last? Forever perhaps. I'm willing to try everything I can to make this work, because though it may not seem like it, I truly care for you. I'm always there for you, not because I want something in return; because I want you to know you have someone here, in the flesh that cares for you and would do anything to keep you happy.

Something is in motion right now that I can not understand, how could I? I'm not a critical thinker. I can feel this... mass energy pushing my body apart, ripping it to shreds. Trying to escape, warm me, show me the errors of my ways.

Ugh, the stretch of your disgusting taste of a hobby. I told you the rules. I gave you the choice. You chose to go against me, now... what's left, me raging, you killing yourself from the inside out. If you really wanted to destroy your body, I'd do it. I've committed pain and torment from the inside of your body before, why not now? Is it because I did in fact teach you how to be stronger? Enclose yourself behind a wall? Or did you really in fact break me... again?

3:42 pm. This is a new developement.

Changes Can Occur... Just Got To Want Them

Its 7:20 a.m. Friday, October 30, 2009. Yesterday we came back from Laredo due to the fact that I had to work (thank you management for cutting the time I spend with my family short). Yet, I got to see my mum, god how I missed her. Got there around the afternoon on Tuesday, but sadly she had to work so I didn't get long to see her. Though, I did get to see E. :) I know, I went to visit my family (which I did), but I got to see my Tiny.

So dropping off my mum, I swung by E's to see how she was, talk abit until I had to pick up my mum. E invited me back for dinner with her parents, but my mum was hungry so I took her to TP (Taco Palenque) for some Panchitos. [Pretty much nachos with alvacodo on top]. She loves that, so I dropped her off and asked if I could head over to E's for dinner. Yes I may be 20, but still rude if I just take the truck without asking.

I arrived late at E's, traffic in some parts. Everyone had finished eating except for her, which I felt bad cause I wanted her to eat too. Though she did eat, we got to watch "Last House on the Left" I think, meh kind of movie; but thats just my opinion. Movie ends and I'm there with her family (Father, Mother, 2 older Sisters, and Brother) when her phone vibrates [Thank you Lynday! :D]. She wanted to know what we were doing and asked if we wanted to go to Wingstop.

Thanks for the save from the awkwardness... So we are off, course I wasn't hungry and asked E if she was, said no so we were just there talking with Lynda and Chente for a whilie.