This Must Be Just Like Living In Paradise

Every time my phone vibrates, the sensation of overwhelming pain and joy shooting up, flowing past my clothes, through my skin till it penetrates onto my heart causing it to awake, beating faster, and ache at the same time; knowing I had to tell you those words that cut so deeply.

My heart has been yours for over 3 years Ohio. Honestly, since I first started talking to you, I started to have feelings towards you. Only until we stopped talking did I truly realize how strong they were. Being apart from you... I fell for you. But when we started talking again... my love, love, grew for you with each passing day, each smile. Look at us now, completely in love with each other.

This is true love, I can never doubt my feelings for you. I don't hide behind a mask, I'd do anything for you. You are the one, the only, my Queen, my Princess, my Soul, my Heart... my one True Love.

The Soul Reason

You ever just wake up and think, "Is this worth it? Is this all really worth all the bullshit and suffering I'm going through?"

No. It's not. Countless upon countless of reasons not to put up with any of this. Reasons, if weighed, no Iron-Man could ever possibly lift. No one could carry the burdens of the world, the world itself can't carry its own. Yet, this enormous weight is upon my shoulders, buckling my back, weakening my knees; blood, sweet, and tears are flowing - a great river of the mixture. Nothing could be worth this much pain that one has to endure...

Until I found you. You, my sole reason to continue, to breathe, and slowly try to handle and balance the weight. Teaching me, loving me, to see it as something insignificant as opposed to our love. Showing me that no matter how tremendous it is... I can see to it to make it smaller, break into fragments off my shoulders so my arms are free to wrap around you. My knees able to bend again to lift you in my arms and spin you as that smile continues to open my eyes to the beauty around the world.

Only you can show me all those things. Only you will be the only one I'll ever need. Only you can show me the truest, purest of loves... You are the reason of my existence. The reason I stand, not in front of you, but by your side as your equal.