I LOVE Halloween

My costume :D

Making Peace

So I spoke with her last night. She called me crying, which broke my heart more than the day our relationship ended. He broke up with her. She apologized and told me the truth of everything. They had dated for some time. Her family loved him, something that would never happen towards me. It hurt to hear her crying for this guy, the guy who won her heart over me.

I wept as well, I love her, I still do, I always will, but truth is, I'm not sure even if the opportunity arose... would we get back together? Not because she has been with someone else, not because she admitted to loving him... I don't know. I don't think anything will ever be the same between, which saddens me. Honestly, I want her to be happy, she might have been perfect to me, but was I perfect for her?

Can I bring her happiness? Can I bring her the happiness she has with him? If I can't, I won't attempt to bring her to me. I don't want sex, I don't want a relationship, I want love. I want to be with someone and know, she is my one and only and no one else will ever catch my eye like she will. No one will compare.

She told me she wasn't the one for me, which hurt too. Was the time spent together a lie? Were the promises we made to each other so feeble and broken the moment they left our lips? Every promise I made to her I meant. Just like every time I said I love you. If you are reading this... I meant it every time and I still do, I still truly love you.

I'm not trying to stir anything with her or new relationships, far from it. I know she has enough to deal with. I just want to speak the truth to her always. I think what saddens me the most from all the promises and talks we had was that I asked something simple of her...

"If you ever find someone new... please end it with me, please don't lie to me and cheat."

You promised you would tell me... You lied. You cheated. For months. Just like my other ex. I knew, deep down I did know something was different between us even though we were miles away... but my god, it happened in the past but the pain is still as intense.

I'm not here to say karma is a bitch, I deep down really wish it works for you, I want... I need you to be happy. Hearing you cry, it broke me. Make it work. Talk to him, if he means anything like what you mean to me, make it work. Hold on to him.

Battle of Two Wolves

Distance

Feels Like Rain

So it's been eons since I last posted. A few things have happened. Some good some bad I suppose. Alas, it is life. No matter what happens, everyone will have a bad day every now and then right? Sadly some people have more bad days continuously or more bad than good but we can only change so much. We can only control so much.

It's about 3p.m. right now and just about getting ready for work. Let's hope hours don't continue to being cut, bills don't slow down or stop so why should we.

Schwinn!

So, I purchased this little beauty 4/18/2012. I got to ride it yesterday to work (got my helmet and lock) and I gotta tell you, was an intense ride.

It's true, it has been a while since I rode a bike and the 2.2 miles TO work was a tad straining and I broke a sweat. Now, after getting out at 1:30a and having a 1.8 mile BACK home was pretty bad, the hill on the service road that runs parallel to the highway was a meanie but it felt great to ride. 

Lets see what tonight has in store for me :3

All Natural August

Meatless May was a success. I completed 31 days of eating healthier and less meat. Now I want to attempt All Natural August, another 31 days of trying something different. Now to come up with a list of items I will and can eat for the upcoming month.

Meatless May Day 3

I ALMOST cracked. So very close to going to Jack in the Box for a Sourdough burger, but lucky me I made some PB&J Sammichs. Well, since I did eat most of the bread today, I really should go and buy some more. Perhaps I should wash dishes so I can make some velvetta, yum. Sadly I can't add the bacon but thats okay, Velvetta... xD

Interestingly, chicken taco sandwich things are being made in the kitchen, and though I am still hungry, I can't bring myself to go get any. I want to see how long I can actually go before I need to consume meat. I'm sure 31 Days should be something easy to accomplish, but I just need to figure out how to last or better yet... go get groceries.

Well, tomorrow back to work. :(

Meatless May

So, I decided I will attempt to be vegetarian for May. Thus, "Meatless May". So starts Day 1 of this very long month of no Baconators, Chik-fil-a Salads, Extra Long Cheesy Coneys, etc.

Ugh. I'm not helping at all. Last night I was craving a burger so badly :( but no, I must remain steadfast and strong. 31 Days of a new lifestyle in regards to food consumption. Somehow, I would have never done this back home. Austin has given me a chance to remake a life. The people, the city, the atmosphere, everything is completely different yet the same.

Off to work. Hopefully, I won't think of sweet, delicious, crunchy, yummy, tasteful bacon...

Damn you Ellie and Schy for rubbing off your silly ways on me.

Vol'jin

I'll Always Be A Hunter

Same pet I've had since I first started as a Night Elf and tamed this beauty at level 10, been with me this whole time :)

He raids with me both in and out of game. :)

26g Repair

Attempted Throne of Four Winds last night with a couple of members of Chaos Risen I had meet or seen around Org a couple of times. One of which was Sicon's alt (! - was wondering where he ran off to, hadn't seen him in awhile). Sadly we didn't down anything, got a few attempts in, best one was getting each of them to around 30%.

Might have been since it was late thats why we couldn't bring ourselves to finish it up. After a week or so without logging onto my Hunter other than my Daily Heroic, I didn't mind. I was itching for a raid, any raid, even if it was just a trash run. Don't get me wrong, love the Guild I'm in, but it's been a pretty slow couple of days with IRL stuff going on. At least 8 or 9 people are geared for Raids, 2 of which happen to be my Hunter and Holy Pally that I leveled and geared to be the Healer for the Guild.

Now, I'm not complaining, good people, great attitudes, but they seem a little alt-happy. Perhaps I'll schedule a Baradin Hold mechanics run this Wednesday so they can see the content and see what it has to offer. Now to get at least 9 other members who want to attempt it...

Project Jenny

Current:

Goal:

Preferably in white and a smaller spoiler. Not much for rims or a huge body kit. Just something, much more attractive.

Man-Card

Ever man should watch this. You are not a man unless you watch it. :]

Disclamier; Every man must watch this movie to receive man-card.

Problems. Problems. Problems.

This is life, isn't it?

Self Taught Enlightenment

Is it possible to gain self-taught enlightenment by the words of another?

No More Mister Nice Guy

Well, back home, there was two school districts; L***** Independent School District and United Independent School District. I used to go to LISD.

Well, LISD was an innocent little place, the only profanity I knew at that time was "damn" and well, yea I was innocent. I went to LISD all the way to about mid-7th grade before I had to relocate to UISD ending 7th beginning 8th.

Now, moving to a new school, no friends, no sense of how this school system works. I had no trouble standing out. Especially being so 'damn' innocent. It was known pretty quickly I didn't have an intensive sailor's tongue.

Which brings up the actually story. I remember I had this class, where their was a police officer of some sort come in and talk to us for a month or so. He'd show us the usual of reports, the evil ways of drugs and alcohol, and effects. But one the first day he came to speak, when he was leaving, he told us he liked humor, so that we should each write a joke for him for the next time he came.

Well, sure enough I was a good little pupil, doing my work, I started writing all these jokes in a extra spiral I had. So, every time he came around and (a lot) of people didn't have jokes, they went to me to get one or two. Well, he never called on me throughout the time he was there.

On his last day of speaking at our school, he told us he heard some great jokes and was very happy to speak at the school. He told us humor is a good trait in a person and that if you know someone who can get a laugh from someone without the expense of another, thats the kind of person you want to be around with.

His speech went on for another 15 mins before his ending remarks were... "Remember, humor is a great trait. But, your jokes have to be clean." When I got home, after my homework and such, I spent the remainder of the day looking over my spiral pages, making sure there were no stains so the jokes were clean...

I used to be such a sweet, sweet thing

What are 'friends' for?

"Oh well, you're their problem now."

-Thanks.

Nerdy Nerd Nerd

This Must Be Just Like Living In Paradise

Every time my phone vibrates, the sensation of overwhelming pain and joy shooting up, flowing past my clothes, through my skin till it penetrates onto my heart causing it to awake, beating faster, and ache at the same time; knowing I had to tell you those words that cut so deeply.

My heart has been yours for over 3 years Ohio. Honestly, since I first started talking to you, I started to have feelings towards you. Only until we stopped talking did I truly realize how strong they were. Being apart from you... I fell for you. But when we started talking again... my love, love, grew for you with each passing day, each smile. Look at us now, completely in love with each other.

This is true love, I can never doubt my feelings for you. I don't hide behind a mask, I'd do anything for you. You are the one, the only, my Queen, my Princess, my Soul, my Heart... my one True Love.