Living THE Dream

How can I decide what I want to settle down with for my life? I want to do some many things with my life; be a game tester, veterinary medicine, teach English literature, travel the world, fire some of the deadliest weapons known to man. How is it possible to have a career in all those fields in order for me to accomplish them all?

I suppose what I really want in my future is the great “American dream” of having that promising career, a good family, the love of a faithful loving partner. If I really had to be picky, I’d want a two-story home with a large enough backyard for a trampoline and swimming pool. Beautifully furnished with oak dressers, white tile in the kitchen, black granite countertops, flushed carpet in the rooms. My dream life consists of having a dream career of the above. Be able to do all the things I enjoy, my hobbies; a studio for any times I may feel like recording or sampling music, or maybe just to have a good laugh with friends. A dark room whenever I feel artistic in developing film for fun: a location for any of my art supplies from ceramics to just painting.

If anything my life consists of decisions in my present time, so my future life is nothing more but hopes and dreams of a close to “perfect” life with everything working in its order. I know nothing will every work completely so I know certain things won’t work at times, but what I really want is just a life I can fully and truly control.

Holding You Back

"Many persons believe that to move up the ladder of success and achievement, they must forget the past, repress it, and relinquish it. But others have just the opposite view. They see old memories as a chance to reckon with the past and integrate past and present."

Assignment: Do memories hinder or help people in their effort to learn from the past and succeed in the present?

Memories can hinder or help an individual succeed in life. Perhaps they can weaken the state of mind or challenge someone to continue. It solely depends on an individual's point of view and how they see the world.

Personally, my memories, at times, hinder me as I recall past events in which I try to stop remembering but as much as they weaken me, they also tend to by the reasons I can still smile. Even though my memories of my past high school years seem to be that of a sappy love story in which I can't get this girl out of my mind, and it keeps me in the state of mind till I can't fight it and look at it positively in which I use it as a source of fuel where it drives me to succeed and become someone.

Once I think about my memories of then I turn it into a sense of rage in which I get angry at myself and I push myself to become better. Those same memories that blocked my mind and weakened me, now I use it as I turned it into my fuel that drives me to excel. That same fuel that keeps me up to date with my work and has had me join organizations. I look back at these past four years in which I meet her and I do not regret anything at all. At times, I become content with the idea that the fact that a simple loving memory can be devasting enough to put me in a state in which many may regret taking or not taking that action, it gives me the motivation to excel. and prove my worth.

Many will say it, I myself have told it to myself plenty of times,

"Stop living in the past. Live for the future."

Though it may be difficult to explain, my past has indeed interconnected my current life with that of my future; my past memories drive my future ones to succeed.