New Year. Lets give it a shot.

Since its the New Year. I decided to try to give society a second chance and work on my rage issues towards them. No this isn't my New Year's resolution. Just, I know people don't want to be around those who are always upset or what not. So here it is, my [so far difficult] attempt to cope with people's "not so smart attributes".

Day 1:

Work was a bust. I got sent home for using a Courtesy Cup [we hand them to customers]. So, manager sees me with one in my hand and since I made NO attempt to throw it away, I got written up. They also added that I was disrespectful the other day. I only voiced my opinion that managers where being hypocrites towards some of the policies and it was always easier for an employee to get written up, because no matter what, a managers word will always be right over and employees'.

Day 2:

Work was blah. I didn't get sent home; I behaved... whatever. As always I was last to be closed down. Managers wouldn't even look at me, though they would when I wasn't doing anything. Not because I didn't want to, but because there were 6 of us back there. Everyone had something to do because they are afraid of a getting written up for standing around. So I stayed on the register. Apparently that isn't enough. I've done more than enough over that past year where I've had to carry someone else's slack. I'm not going to be a lazy person, but I'm not going to fully go out of my way to impress these people. 3 of the managers have been employees that I've worked with before. Yet, they treat us just like the rest of the managers, like we are just pawns.

Day 3. Let's see what happens today.

Techy Tech Tech

We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies.

I write from you from foreign soil. By soil, I mean Lynday's computer on the other side of the apartment. Sadly my desktop might actually have to be put to Rest In Piece. It keeps turning off within 5 or so mins of being on so I am thinking I might need a new power supply; but I'm not a tech person so I don't really know.

Hopefully my hours at [crap] work get back straight again so I can have enough money to start building a new one up again. Starting with a power supply, next to motherboard, processor, memory, maybe a new hard drive. Finally a monitor. Either way, I have bills to pay so this might take longer than expected.

Speaking longer than expected. I STILL don't have my car. It's been well over a year and I am raging. I need that car to go to school and hopefully find a better job. Lets face it, minimum wage for doing a lot of different departments just isn't cutting it or my picnic in the woods. I don't see how management or corporation could be so stupid and blind and money hungry to try to treat everyone the same.

On a different note. WET. Xbox. I has it. I passed it once already. Finished some of the achievements. Now I'm a playing it again in a harder difficulty. Tempted to go to GameStop and trade it in for Tekken 6, or Street Fighter, or something else. But meh, I haven't decided yet. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't. I should be a responsible adult and sell it to GameStop for the money for bills. I shouldn't have bought it in the first place, but I really wanted to play it. Its like Max Payne. Only female version with a sword and guns. :D

Recap. Computer. Busted. Paying to play WoW. Not playing. Car. Don't have it yet. Apparently uncle decided to paint it. Not sure the color. WET. Fun little game. Might trade it in. Not sure.

Living THE Dream

How can I decide what I want to settle down with for my life? I want to do some many things with my life; be a game tester, veterinary medicine, teach English literature, travel the world, fire some of the deadliest weapons known to man. How is it possible to have a career in all those fields in order for me to accomplish them all?

I suppose what I really want in my future is the great “American dream” of having that promising career, a good family, the love of a faithful loving partner. If I really had to be picky, I’d want a two-story home with a large enough backyard for a trampoline and swimming pool. Beautifully furnished with oak dressers, white tile in the kitchen, black granite countertops, flushed carpet in the rooms. My dream life consists of having a dream career of the above. Be able to do all the things I enjoy, my hobbies; a studio for any times I may feel like recording or sampling music, or maybe just to have a good laugh with friends. A dark room whenever I feel artistic in developing film for fun: a location for any of my art supplies from ceramics to just painting.

If anything my life consists of decisions in my present time, so my future life is nothing more but hopes and dreams of a close to “perfect” life with everything working in its order. I know nothing will every work completely so I know certain things won’t work at times, but what I really want is just a life I can fully and truly control.